ho hum........i really hate work. Not really the job as such, but the sense of dislocation i get from being stuck AT work. I have several friends and accquaintances who dont work, and i always have this sense of being left out, of MISSING out, tho that might just be cos i can be a nosey tart lol. Id LOVE to be able to spend my days looking after my animals, but i dont have anyone to support that, or me, and way too many bills to be able to just drop work. Id love to study again, but with shift work and the beasties and the morons i live with, and the fact that i barely break even financially as it is, thats not really an option either, so im kinda stuck with it. I guess there are worse jobs out there....i get told to quit cos im really not very happy, but then again it pays well and id be REALLY unhappy if i had the bailiffs at the door ;)
since i was at work yesterday(also) i asked someone to get in touch with the friend with the rat going in for biopsy yesterday and see how it went....said he would but im guessing he got caught up having a good time cos he didnt get back in touch, so i contacted her myself today.......not good news :( tho then we didnt expect it to be
makes me sad, and brings to mind the whole bday thing. Someone was celebrating the bday of thier rats the other day...........said that they had been told by a wise person that "it was a celebration of thier lives and the time they had spent with him"
well i guess im not wise lol, not that thats news ;)
to me the dates dont matter...........hell i dont even keep track of my OWN bdays..every DAY is a celebration esp with animals like rats with such short lives.........the number of days doesnt matter, just that theyre there, but there again i guess im outta step with the rest of the world there as usual ;)
i suppose most people need some sort of landmark against which to measure things
on another note entirely, after a battle to get into the kitchen last nite at home im yet again convinced that i HAVE to move..............prob is how
it costs to move, and i cant afford that....bond, rent in advance, rental of moving gear not to mention the TIME it takes, tho that has to be balanced against the fact that im going insane living where i am lol
another random thought....my bloody jaw aches lol
damn infected tooth....and YES i should get it seen to, but i cant afford to atm.......lol yet another thing for the back burner